{"id":40418,"date":"2025-11-09T19:41:29","date_gmt":"2025-11-09T16:41:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n.jpg"},"modified":"2025-11-09T19:44:19","modified_gmt":"2025-11-09T16:44:19","slug":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/genel\/artik-herseyi-itiraf-ediyorum\/attachment\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n\/","title":{"rendered":"Art\u0131k her\u015feyi itiraf ediyorum"},"author":2,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n.jpg'><img width=\"250\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-250x300.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-250x300.jpg 250w, https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n.jpg 500w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 250px) 100vw, 250px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>O g\u00fcn kalbim deli gibi at\u0131yordu. Y\u0131llard\u0131r hissetmedi\u011fim heyecan\u0131 yeniden ya\u015f\u0131yordum. Kul\u00fcbeye vard\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, o \u00e7ok \u00f6zledi\u011fim g\u00f6zlerle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131m. Sanki y\u0131llar geri sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Eskiden k\u00f6y d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnlerinde bana g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen, ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kaderin bir araya getirmedi\u011fi o adam kar\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131. Bir s\u00fcre sessizce bakt\u0131k birbirimize. Sonra g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. \u201cY\u0131llar seni hi\u00e7 de\u011fi\u015ftirmemi\u015f,\u201d dedi. Oysa ben de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015ftim \u2014 yorgundum, k\u0131rg\u0131nd\u0131m, ama i\u00e7imde h\u00e2l\u00e2 sevgiye a\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n vard\u0131. Konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131k. Saatler nas\u0131l ge\u00e7ti anlamad\u0131m. Kalbimdeki k\u0131r\u0131k yerlerden i\u00e7eri bir s\u0131cakl\u0131k doldu. Fakat ayn\u0131 zamanda i\u00e7imde bir su\u00e7luluk da vard\u0131. Her ne kadar e\u015fimle aram k\u00f6t\u00fc olsa da, h\u00e2l\u00e2 evliydim. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131m vard\u0131. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce bir an bile akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131. O g\u00fcn, vedala\u015f\u0131rken elimi tuttu. \u201cKe\u015fke o zaman seni kaybetmeseydim,\u201d dedi. O an i\u00e7imden bir \u015feyler koptu. Eve d\u00f6nerken g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 tutamad\u0131m. Kalbim ikiye b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc: bir yan\u0131nda ge\u00e7mi\u015fin sevgisi, di\u011fer yan\u0131nda bug\u00fcn\u00fcn sorumluluklar\u0131. O g\u00fcnden sonra gizlice mesajla\u015fmaya devam ettik. Sanki y\u0131llard\u0131r i\u00e7imde biriken yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, de\u011fersiz hissetmenin ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 onun ilgisiyle dindiriyordum. Ama her mesaj, beni biraz daha karanl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7ekiyordu. Bir g\u00fcn kaynanam fark etti. Telefonda bir mesaj g\u00f6rd\u00fc ama okumad\u0131, sadece e\u015fime \u201ckar\u0131n bir \u015feyler sakl\u0131yor\u201d dedi. O ak\u015fam eve geldi\u011finde e\u015fim bana hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmadan telefona uzand\u0131. Kalbim duracak gibi oldu. Telefonu ald\u0131, mesajlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u2026 O an evdeki hava buz kesti. Ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, a\u011flad\u0131, duvarlar\u0131 yumruklad\u0131. O kadar \u00f6fkeliydi ki, ilk defa ger\u00e7ekten korktum&#8230; \u201cBunca y\u0131l seni savundum, anneme ra\u011fmen yan\u0131nda durdum, sen ne yapt\u0131n?\u201d dedi. Beni o gece evden kovdu. \u00c7ocuklar a\u011fl\u0131yordu, ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilemedim. Annemlerin evine gittim. O gece hayat\u0131m\u0131n en uzun gecesiydi. \u2014 Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k ve Fark\u0131ndal\u0131k G\u00fcnler ge\u00e7ti. Sessizlik i\u00e7imi kemiriyordu. O adamla da art\u0131k konu\u015fmuyordum. Anlad\u0131m ki o da ge\u00e7mi\u015fin bir hat\u0131ras\u0131ym\u0131\u015f, benim yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 doldurmak i\u00e7in ortaya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f bir hayaldi sadece. Bir sabah aynaya bakt\u0131m. Kar\u015f\u0131mda a\u011flamaktan \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f, ama art\u0131k g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir kad\u0131n vard\u0131. \u201cBen nerede kaybettim kendimi?\u201d diye sordum. Cevab\u0131 basitti: kendimi sevmeyi unutmu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":500,"height":600,"file":"2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n.jpg","sizes":{"medium":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-250x300.jpg","width":250,"height":300,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-250x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-150x150.jpg"},"kucukResim":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-80x50.jpg","width":80,"height":50,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-80x50.jpg"},"sliderResim":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-500x330.jpg","width":500,"height":330,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-500x330.jpg"},"resim1":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-184x140.jpg","width":184,"height":140,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-184x140.jpg"},"resim2":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-216x103.jpg","width":216,"height":103,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-216x103.jpg"},"resim3":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-145x70.jpg","width":145,"height":70,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-145x70.jpg"},"sagSlider":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-300x150.jpg","width":300,"height":150,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-300x150.jpg"},"yeniSlider":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-500x290.jpg","width":500,"height":290,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n-500x290.jpg"},"full":{"file":"577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n.jpg","width":500,"height":600,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[]}},"post":40416,"source_url":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/577456385_122157513830861904_4888376056505728682_n.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/40418"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/adanaseshaber.com.tr\/habercim\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=40418"}]}}